Discipline

I've been asked twice within a short amount of time why I'm not seeing anyone, or in a relationship at the very least. It's starting to piss me off. The reason it vexes me so much is because most people do not even manage their own well enough to make me desire one. Most people are shit in relationships, but prefer that to having to deal with their miserable selves. Never have I ever been so disinterested in a seemingly very important component of life. Nevertheless, I am firm on this stance for the time being, for the sole reason that people are not disciplined. Every type of relationships come with a lot of instances in which we are tested to do the right thing. And yes: many, very many of us fail. Without discipline, which a lot of people don't genuinely have, it is really hard to trust people. It's a way of keeping oneself honest without the need of another to do so.

However, so often I see and hear people who lack discipline accuse others who have more assertive roles in their lives, such as bosses, parents, husbands (and wives now) etc, of being controlling and insecure when their level of discipline and integrity is called to question. I can understand people opting to be in relationships for their own selfish gain as long as they are willing to put in the work and do their part.

Love is a stupid reason to be involve oneself in a relationship, or more importantly, a marriage with someone. Therefore I am dismissing that factore entirely. Anyways, regardless of what the reasons are for people to involve themselves with others in any way beyond being acqueintences, you can always count on people doing the wrong thing and fucking shit up because of their lack of discipline; their disinterest, or outright incapacity to do the right thing.

People are really shitty at denying themselves. We couldn't even do it if it were to benefit us later on; how much worse are we at doing such a thing, simply because it's right? I've been really jaded with people (humanity is probably a better word) on and off for a while now because people need a reason to do what is just, even for the people they are seemingly supposed to care about.

A lot of us as people don't actually give a shit about each other, which is fine, except for the fact that we still expect people to invest so highly in us. It could also be that we are becoming more and more degenerate. Whichever one it maybe, the fact that a lot of us want to have our cake and eat it too, holds true regardless. Why properly leave a relationship or marriage when you can step out of it, fulfill your carnal desires and get back to your life? Or why confront your friend about an issue you have with him or her when you can just talk shit about the person to everyone?

I'm not sure the title of this blog post is appropriate, but I couldn't stop thinking about that word when I hear about all the shitty things people do for each other. I know that people are inherently selfish by human nature, but this shit is fucking vexing. If you can't do the right thing when you don't want to do it, consistently as well, you have absolutely no right to ask for loyalty, trust, patience, etc from others.

This is a rant, so it probably won't read well, but I wanted to write about this. I'm not that cranky hermit who just goes scowling at people for no reason; not yet anyways. But we're in 2023. Relationships and marriages are not badges of honour anymore.